Chat: Actually, you never thought of that.  You should stop getting medical help immediately so that you may maximize your suffering so that God can use the condition to its fullest to develop and test you to a greater degree.

I urge you to CONTINUE to get medical help so that you can relieve your suffering as you study the Word and find out how to receive healing directly from the Lord.  God is not a torturer for an oppressive regime.  He is not out to destroy you in order to build your character, either.  NO ONE in Scripture ever PRAYED TO GET WORSE, so you have no precedent to want to feel worse than you do right now.

You seem to have a concept of trials that doesn’t match the Bible.  Please read the answer to Objection: You Should Not Try to Hurry out of Trials (Like Sickness) Because They Are More Precious Than Gold (1 Peter 1:7).