Chat: You believe that your sickness is a blessing, so the sicker you are, the more blessed you will be.

As your physical condition has deteriorated, have you experienced an increased sense of blessing already?  Are you happier now that your pain has worsened?  I won’t make you click answers to those questions because I think that I can safely assume that the answer is “no.”

It sounds like you have fallen into the mindset discussed in the reply to Objection: You Should Not Try to Hurry out of Trials (Like Sickness) Because They Are More Precious Than Gold (1 Peter 1:7).  Please read that next.