Chat: You are getting medical help.

Why are you getting medical help to try to get rid of the condition that you believe the Lord wants to use for a higher purpose in your life?

I hate the Lord and I am deliberately trying to get out of His will.

I don’t want to grow as a Christian if this is the price of doing so.

Even though the Lord wants me to have this condition, it is too difficult to handle without medical help.

I believe that the Lord wants me to suffer until such time as human medical help can take away this condition.  His path for my healing is through medicine.

Actually, I never thought of that.  I should stop getting medical help immediately so that I may maximize my suffering so that God can use the condition to its fullest to develop and test me to a greater degree.

I never realized the contradiction between believing that God wants me sick and doing everything I can to get well.